May 2012
Roses are red
Violets are blue
Sugar is sweet
You’re going to die alone
In the woods with Shia LaBeouf
But here’s my number, so call me maybe?
I want children’s shows to show non-heteronormative relationships AND HAVE THAT BE OKAY.
I want adults’ shows to show non-heteronormative relationships AND HAVE THAT ALSO BE OKAY.
I want to be able to turn on a television or go to the theatre and not be told that SUBTEXT is a valid form of representation, even if everyone involved in the making of the show screams “NO HOMO” whenever questioned about what demographic they are choosing to represent.
Or told that I should feel “lucky” to have even a tokenized character.
I want straight and cis to stop being the default orientation or identity of any given character (or PERSON).
I want all of this, and so very much more.
First, you have to make cupcakes.
Theeeeen you have to wait for your tail to twitch.
Then you have to throw the superest bestest most wonderfulest party.
April 2012
… Somehow that makes me feel better about it. <3
I was just wondering what my followers think…
So I personally am not religious so much as I am spiritual. I believe the universe communicates and I believe in fate and destiny to a degree, though I think your fate can change in an instant and probably does every day.
Often times we ignore the universe when it communicates with us. For example, a lot of things going wrong and preventing you from doing something is often a sign you should just not do it. Moving in with Gracie was one of these things. Often, the universe will provide resistance for things you should not do and ease the way for things you should.
Now, this doesn’t include hard work. If doing something is going to require you to do a lot of work that may tire you or put upon you, that’s not the same. Rather, if something stands in your way, like rules, finances, little things which you have no control over, and it KEEPS HAPPENING I usually take it as the universe saying “hey hey hey, whoa, this will have unintended consequences, don’t do it.”
While I am somewhat bitter about it, my roomies moving out was, in my mind, a forced movement by the universe. The universe is trying to force me to make changes in my life because I am not doing something I’m supposed to. It NEEDED to happen, even if I didn’t see that or like it at first. There was a lot of reasons it shouldn’t have happened but it did anyway and to me that screams interference from the powers that be.
The complication comes in that I don’t know where the universe wants me to go from here or what exactly it is I’m supposed to be getting out of this. I’m sure, if its being so direct and forceful, that it’s a bunch of things but that doesn’t make deciding what to do from here on out any easier.
So as I see it, I have three choices.
Live in this apartment alone:
- Pros: Solitary and private. Lots of space. Room for me to create a studio and the cats seem to really like the peace and quiet. Plenty of room for me to spread out. Able to make messes and clean them at my leisure. Save money on food. Able to concentrate more easily on work, easier to keep clean due to lack of clutter. I just LIKE living alone in a ginormous apartment, okay?
- Cons: Nearly completely unaffordable, have to pay utilities myself, a bit lonely, no incentive to clean or keep things neat, possible stagnation if I get comfortable which would mean not… doing stuff I should I guess? In other words, I don’t think the universe wanted me to get away from my friends and that’s pretty much the only change taking place here.
Sublease the apartment to a new roommate:
- Pros: Affordable, get to keep the apartment without the stress of cost, continued independence.
- Cons: I won’t necessarily know this person well, lots of unforseen issues with them, not sure how they’ll treat the cats, just a lot of unknowns and, as with the living alone thing, I’m not changing very much.
Sublease the apartment to completely new people and leave:
- Pros: Save a lot of money, get scott free out of an expensive-to-break lease, get to move home and have copious amounts of extra money, get to save money to move elsewhere, making REAL changes.
- Cons: Have to move home *groooooan*, have to start my life over completely, HAVING TO MOVE HOME. AHHH PARENTS.
So what do you guys think? What would you do? What do you personally think is best? Tell me what to do. I know very well it’s my life and I will do what I think is best in the end but I’m curious what other people have to say or what they could advise and why.
Hee hee <///< Okay when I get home I will gpoy.
o///o Maggie or Moogie?
like i just need 8+ dollars in paypal
sooobbsss
someone commission Tuesdae!! HER ART IS SO GOOD THIS IS A GREAT DEAL.
I will. o3o
I kind of want to but I’m not sure which outfit to do. The Apollo and Eros outfit is cuter but the Ode to the Bouncer outfit is more recognizable.
Hurt you good.
nayr1230 submitted:
I personally think if you can afford all the necessary payments and not be down to the wire every month, I think living alone would be great. No roommates means that the drama stops as soon as you get home, because you’re the only one there. Loneliness isn’t really an issue, because A. You have cats, and B. You can always invite people over, and kick them out when you need peace and quiet again. Living alone is great, I love it.
In the event you can’t afford everything and and not be anxious about being out of money (like I would be), getting a new roommate might be the best option. As weird as a stranger living with you would be, you could always get to know them and find out things you have in common. Hypothetically speaking, if the new roommate didn’t work out, it wouldn’t be as hurtful or as upsetting as the old roomies leaving (sorry about that, by the way :( )
As a last resort, I’d move in with my parents. I don’t know how your parents are, but when I saw that option I did the most bloodcurdling scream ever. My parents are controlling and in my business anyway, and would be even moreso if I lived at home. But your parents might be different, or you might have another reason from mine that moving in with them would be a god awful idea xD.
That’s just my opinion though. Regardless, do what’s best for you, and the best of luck to you in whatever you decide.
My parents are actually pretty cool, my dad and I just tend to butt heads because we’re both stubborn jerks. He’s really condescending and thinks he knows what’s best but if I tell him to back off, he usually will, albeit unhappily. He was coming up with a lot of really weak excuses for me not to go to Austin because he doesn’t want me to move that far away, which will be kind of… a constant downer and make me feel like I can’t do it, though I told him if I don’t have a job lined up when I move then I won’t move so…
My mom is really supportive but to a fault, but they both want me to come home because they’re worried about me. The suicide talk and the depression meds have shaken them and I think they want me, at least for awhile, somewhere where they can keep an eye on me and supervise my behavior.
However… well let’s just say the reason we as animals separate from our parents is because parents become… unnecessary in a lot of ways as we get older. In other words, I think that very few parents know how to handle their grown ass adult children. They let go where they need to hold on and hold on where they need to let go.
My parents try their best but they don’t have a clue when to leave me a lone and when to come to my aid.
However, living with my parents is not a fate worse than death and I’m considering it mainly because it would allow me to recover financially and get a nice stock pile of money going. The biggest issue is a lack of reliable internet and it’s hard for me to focus on artwork and stuff living at home.
But it may be my ticket to eventually move to Austin or someplace else that has more going on than here. I really need to be closer to an environment of people who are like me instead of just sitting awkwardly in the middle of a bunch of old conservative couples.
And to be honest, if I stayed in the apartment, when the lease was up I’d probably move home anyway, so I’m sort of delaying the inevitable…

